Why Not?

So I feel like ever since this whole Kanye West and Taylor Swift thing happened, everyone has gone crazy and things are just getting out of control everywhere! By that I just mean that its becoming a domino effect in a way. Kanye West dissed Taylor Swift, and then everyone started losing their minds and speaking their minds and now everyone is just so angry they cant contain themselves.
I'm speaking about one person in particular but I dont want you to think I'm speaking about him in a negative fashion. In fact I think its pretty kick ass what he said. So for those of you that do not know, President Obama was recorded calling Kanye West a jackass during an interview with CNBC Monday night.
Now I had an almost really bad argument with my mom yesterday about this. As far as I know she has not heard the audio for this. So she thinks that it is fake. It is not fake. It is clearly Obama speaking. This is not a bad thing! I think its AWESOME that our President is someone who is not afraid to speak his mind. Ok so maybe he gets in a little trouble but honestly, who really cares? Does Obama calling Kanye a jackass affect the economy or the country's safety in any way? No, so then what is the B-F-D? I love that our President is someone who keeps seeming like just a cool, regular guy, who also happens to run things for the entire country. I think that's pretty kick-ass.
Mama Tobe on the other hand did not agree with me. She kept saying how our president is someone who would NEVER say something like that. And her defense? "He just wouldn't!". I love you Mom but I'm pretty sure every single person who has heard that audio will disagree with you. Obama is awesome, Kanye West IS a jackass, and thats all there is to it. I'm sure he doesnt feel bad about it. Besides I'm pretty sure no one else made Kanye feel worse than Jay Leno. Way to go Jay.
If you want to listen to the Obama audio and make your own opinion about it click here. That's all I have for today so far. Who is going to go crazy next???

Real or Not Real....

So lately there has been a lot of buzz about celebrities who are serious assholes. And it got me thinking...are the things we hear true or are they made up by people who really have no lives? The whole Kanye West thing, we all know is true...because the idiot did it on national television. At least for the other celebrities its things you hear on the radio from VJs or read in tabloids so its hard to differentiate between the truth and lies. But Kanye was all "fuck that...I want everyone to KNOW that I'm an asshole". And now we know. Thanks Kanye!
But what brings me to this question today are a few things. One is from What The Buck on Youtube, that Megan Fox is a huge bitch. Now the girl is really pretty and sits in really bizarre ways in movies that make her look even more hot, but she looks like a bitch right? Little bit? Maybe its just me. Any who apparently I am not the only who thinks she is a bitch. According to a letter from some crew members who worked on the new Transformers movies agree. And they would actually know since they worked with her. They decided to write an anonymous letter sharing specific times that Megan Fox was a huge bitch and just a terrible person (and actress) all around. Now I'm sure all of you can agree Fox is no Oscar winner anytime soon for her Transformer performances so that part is actually kind of a fact. But are these allegations that she is a rude, disrespectful bitch true? Are the people who wrote this letter REAL crew members on Transformers? Since they wanted to keep their jobs and could not reveal their names its hard to tell. Go read the letter here and let me know what you think.
Now my second celebrity that I wanted to talk about was Kelly Clarkson. I just saw her in concert and she was freaking fantasmic so there will be no Kelly bashing here. She is amazing. However on the radio today I heard that she posted a letter to Kanye West telling him what an a-hole he really is. I checked this letter out which I found on her blog I guess? I might do more research and find out if it is really her blog. I cant tell. This is what I mean! I can kind of see her saying/writing something like that to Kanye (especially because he deserves it!) but at the same time how do we know! She was pretty free with her speech if you get my drift. The girl did not hold back with her Kanye bashing! Go Kelly! And at the same time...would she really have said all those things?
Will celebrities ever bring themselves down to our level and actually communicate with us regular people directly? Not from their assistants or whoever. I mean I dont talk to any celebrities so I dont know if any of them actually do.
Either way, go check out Kelly Clarksons "blog" and letter to Kanye here and let me know what you think!
Those were my random thoughts for today. Enjoy.

Same ol', Same ol'....

Good morning everyone! Happy Monday! Now I know what I am about to talk about today might sound somewhat repetitive from my other blogs but...you'll just have to deal for today :) As a side note I just want to say that my life is really not that exciting, so the fact that I'm writing about anything at all is a small miracle. Ok so continuing on...
I know I've been talking about doing stuff for me lately like these blogs, and (trying) to make YouTube vlogs, and videos and whatever makes me happy. I just wanted to emphasize how important I think it is to just do things for YOU. And do what makes YOU happy. Obviously you should be considerate and unselfish and do nice things for others but you really need to be looking out for number one. If you live your life trying to make everyone else but yourself happy you are going to kill yourself trying to do things that you think other people actually notice or care about.
Sometimes I get upset because I feel like I lose friends or things in my life are not going the way I feel they should be going. But it occurred to me last night that I cant spend the rest of my life freaking out that things are wrong, and worrying about things that in the long run, probably dont matter. I finally just took a few deep breaths and reminded myself that things are going to be ok. I have AMAZING friends (you all know who you are and I absolutely adore every one of you <3) and when I think about it, I actually have a pretty fun life. Yes Monday through Friday are not exactly the most exciting days ever, but every single day does not have to be AMAZING or EXCITING. My weekends and the occasional night out with people that I truly love and care about, and vice versa, are enough for me :)
As for doing all the things that make me happy, they are definitely going to continue. I am fully aware that I will not be famous any time soon or, really ever for my, what I'm sure all of you think are so exciting and fantastic, vlogs and videos. But they are fun to make and I actually enjoy walking around talking to myself and my little Flipcam. Its actually kind of freeing like you're writing a journal except you're talking to it. You guys should try it sometime. And I may not be the most fantastic writer but I like writing my sometimes daily thoughts to all you who visit here :)
So basically just one last time, make sure you all do what makes you happy. Because even though your friends and family are so important to you, its YOU that is the main star in your story. So make sure you treat the star with some respect and love. See ya :)

ugh WHAT IS IT!

Sorry everyone for the delay in the blogging. I had such a great topic to talk about the other day but as soon as I opened this up to start writing about it, my mind went completely blank! I STILL cant think of what it was! I know what the topic was but I can not for the life of me think what examples I wanted to use were :( So for today you will have to deal with a boring average blog about nothing interesting :) Arent we all excited?

Ok I just thought of a fun topic. Here we go!

What does everyone think about the whole "everything happens for a reason" deal? or "it was meant to be!" I often say those very cliche lines and sometimes I believe it. But do we believe in it because it applies to something that has just happened? For instance, right now I am listening to the new Third Eye Blind album. When I was 12 turning 13 I had a Bat Mitzvah and my (insanely dorky) theme was J100. Yes like z100 but with a J for Jamie :) How cool was I in 7th grade? Anyway as my gift I gave away mix CDs with all my favorite songs at the time that still haunt me. For weeks and months before my party I would listen to songs on the radio trying to pick my favorite few that would make the cut. The one song I KNEW had to be on it was Semi-Charmed Life by Third Eye Blind. Why you ask? Because every single time I would get in the car with my Mom and turn on z100, that song would be playing. Literally. It started getting a little creepy. I would always say ahh its my song! And probably dole out that wonderful cliche, that there had to be a reason that song was on. But for what reason? That I would always enjoy my car ride because that song was on? That could possibly be true but not because that song is deeply meaningful or anything. Is there really a plan for all of us, so when something great happens and everything seems to fall into place, it makes sense to say "it was fate!...it was meant to be". Or perhaps because something awesome happens right after something crappy, we all say "everything happens for a reason!". Maybe I will be famous because so many people read my boring blogs! And then I will get to say my blog was crappy for a reason :)

Lets start over again....

So last night slash yesterday afternoon I decided that I was going to start to revamp my life a little bit. I read somewhere once that the only reason we are in a bad mood is because we put ourselves in a bad mood. Well I am not going to put myself in bad moods anymore or make myself feel bad. There is no reason! I am going to start doing things for ME. One thing that I am going to start doing more is going to shows for local bands and bands I like. I miss going to shows! I miss seeing my favorite bands live and knowing all the words and singing it back in their faces and shoving myself up to the front of the stage. LOVE IT!
So that's one thing I am going to start doing more. I am also going to keep vlogging. I feel like my friends dont really get it or they think its kind of weird or silly and that is totally ok. I really like doing it though. It's actually kind of freeing in a way? I dont think that is the word I want to use but its the word I'm going with! I like talking to the camera when I'm hanging out or driving somewhere talking about whatever is on my mind. If no one is around then its a great thing to talk to so I can talk things out. I used to write a journal on my computer when I was upset because I felt I couldnt talk to anyone and also since my computer is an inanimate object it wouldnt talk back and it couldnt pass judgement on me. I feel the same way a little bit with my little Flipcam.
So there are other things I am going to be doing in my life to revamp and start over fresh but for now those things will do. I feel really good about this decision. What is everyone doing with their lives to better themselves or make themselves feel better? I suggest you do something to make yourself happy! It feels great!

Life is Exhausting

Life is just so tiring lately. I feel like everything about my life just takes so much energy. I feel like its really not going anywhere. I feel like I have no direction and I am so lost. And it gets harder to deal with everyday when I am surrounded by people who are actually doing something worthy with their lives. And its not just my friends and family. Its everyone in the world. I go on facebook and see people advancing in their careers or lives through their statuses. I can follow already famous people on Twitter and see all the cool shit they are doing to help better themselves. I watch tons and tons of videos of people on YouTube who became famous just by being themselves!
What I would like to know is where everyone got their hands on the manual to life and also why it is apparently out of stock and I can never read it. Clearly I missed something in life growing up that told me how I can have a great life, great career, great everything. I know that everything cant just be all easy and handed to us and it shouldnt be that way. People should work hard for the rewards that they get. I want to work hard at something I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT THAT IS! Every day is another day spent with hours and minutes of my life just ticking away and the more pressure I feel to figure my shit out.
Sorry that today is so depressing. Its just the way I feel. So welcome to my life where it is basically just a lovely cycle of the same shit, different day.

HUMP DAY!

What up everyone! So its Wednesday which means its Hump Day! So that means that todays blog is going to be somewhat of a stream of consciousness (for anyone that reads this who had Mr. Thayer you know what that is!). For those that have no idea what that is, basically I am just going to keep writing what is on my mind and not stopping until I feel like it. Ok here we go!
So right now I am listening to LFO which I am sure everyone remembers for their song Summer Girls (I think?). You know the one that goes " New Kids on the Block got a bunch of hits, Chinese food makes me sick..." but personally my favorite song of theirs is "Every Other Time". If you have not heard this song GO LISTEN TO IT. Its pretty awesome. They were pretty cute and had catchy songs. Too bad they didnt last very long. Come to think of it boy bands dont seem to last very long anyway. Actually I think most people are successful by themselves. Sometimes (most of the time) its too hard to do projects as a group of people because everyone always wants to do it their own way. I can totally relate. When I do projects or anything really I always want to do it myself. I have a vision of how I want things to go and its so much easier just to do everything myself so that it turns out the way I want it to. You cant control how someone does something (actually you can but it probably isnt very nice) so its just easier to do all the work yourself. I bet people in the music industry feel the same which is why all the solo artists just keep being solo and having people "featured" in their songs. That way they can tell the other famous person singing what to do and the solo artist gets all the credit.
So I have a second interview today for this job I really want! I am pretty darn excited! I really hope I get it. Ok that thought was pretty boring and next...
I probably should not be listening to music while I do this stream writing thing. All I can think about are the lyrics and I have to concentrate to think about what I'm trying to write. Not really the whole point of writing what you're thinking.
So if I get this job I will be working in the city which is pretty cool because its on Madison Ave (fancy!) and I think working in the city is kind of cool. The sucky part is that I will no longer have the luxury of waking up at the lovely time of about 8am, showering, getting ready, and heading out the door 5 minutes before I need to be at work since my job now is 5 minutes from my house! Now I will have to wake up at I dont even know what god forsaken time in the morning so I can get to the train station way before 7 so I can get a decent parking spot and then take the train in so I can be at work at...get ready....8:20! How crazy is that! Sometimes I dont even wake up until then now a days! Wow. This is going to be rough for me. Jamie likey sleep. I can handle it though. And by the way I say 8:20 because my work day will not start until 8:30 but I was told that it is always good to be a little early so that way I am sitting at my desk all ready for the day when the boss lady comes walking in. And I totally agree. I really hope I get it I am so excited!!
Ok so if anyone follows my Twitter I am sure you have seen me mention how EXCITED I am to see KELLY CLARKSON! Me and my bffs will be traveling TOMORROW! (Thursday) to Allentown, PA to see Miss Kelly Clarkson perform in concert! Now that is really the highlight of this entire trip and the biggest reason we are going to another state but there are also many other amazing things that are going to make this trip the best one: We will be stopping at Sonic and CiCi's. If you live on Long Island (where I do!) or you live in places where they advertise these places but there are non near you, then I know you feel my excitement. Part two of this amazing trip continues at Dorney Park! I really do not think I can convey in my blog how insanely excited I am to ride some really sick roller coasters! Roller coasters are one of my favorite things in this world. They are so scary and yet so fun at the same time. I think roller coasters are in the same category as horror movies, another love of mine. I get really scared watching horror movies and if they are actually good I'll get nightmares. When I ride up roller coasters, especially if they have a rediculous drop, I often start freaking out about why I wanted to go on this death ride so high up in the air (especially since I have a fear of heights...). I think the reason for why I love both of these things is for the rush. I get a rush of excitement when the roller coaster has that first big drop and I realize ok...I am still alive! Woo lets go! The same goes for when I watch scary movies. Knowing that I survived watching this truly scary movie and being able to fall asleep at some point (even if it is 5am..) gives me a rush. Anyone else feel this way? Well I do.
Ok so I think for now that about wraps up my stream of random thoughts in my head. I probably will not be blogging till at least Saturday since I am going away! But I hope everyone has a fantastic rest of the week! Wish me luck on my interview! I'll be thinking of great things to write about as I enjoy awesome food, a ridiculous concert, and probably even more ridiculous car ride, and wild and crazy roller coasters and rides. See ya!

So creeped out...and it hurts

So as I sit here at my computer for hours on end I often find myself in the same position for very long periods of time. Normally this is fixed my doing some slight stretching with my arms over my head and then I'm good. However today I noticed that when I went to stretch after sitting the same way for a while, there was a slight pain my chest. Not a huge scary pain like I hit it or something, but rather the kind of weird pain you get when you need to crack something. I am pretty sure that my sternum needs to crack. This really really creeps me out for many reasons. And here they are :)
This creeps me out mostly because I think cracking bones is the nastiest thing on the earth. And there are a lot of creepy gross things on this planet. But people, including myself, cracking bones really gives me the heeby jeebies. Now if I get up in the morning and stretch then yes, sometimes my back will crack slightly, or my ankles. However that is different because I do not mean for them to crack, nor do I do it repeatedly throughout the day. I never crack my fingers, neck, toes, anything. I am actually getting quite creeped out thinking about it as I write this.
Now this weird need I have today to crack my sternum freaks me out as well because as far as I know, and I did a little research on this, there are no joints really in your sternum. You are able to crack bones in your back, toes, fingers, etc. because they are all connected by joints. When those joints separate they cause an air bubble or pocket to form between the joints. When you pull them or cause them to separate more the air bubble that has formed pops, which is the "cracking" noise you hear. The idea of popping something between your joints or anywhere in your body creeps me out even more than the idea of "cracking" a bone. Ugh.
So all of this really worries me. When I turn a certain way it is pretty painful and weird. I know I should try to crack it but I am so nervous too. This isnt just my thumb or one of my little toes. This is my sternum. IN MY CHEST! That is a pretty big "bone" to crack. This whole thing is making me so nervous! I hope it goes away at some point and I can avoid the whole cracking thing. I am really getting freaked out now! I need to stop.